I can't believe its been 5 months. I am still amazed....everything about her is so perfect. Every time I look at her I think of the first ultrasound we saw, of a tiny pulsing grain of rice. How miraculous is it, that two single cells merged to eventually become this little human being! I imagine the explosion of growth; the cells that split and grow and split and grow in a perfect sequence and the perfectly healthy baby that became, her only nourishment- my breast milk drawn from the nutrients in my blood. It boggles my mind. How have I sustained her this whole time? Little Sophie, a brand new person in the world.... We prayed to be blessed with a child and I am constantly thankful, constantly amazed. I look at her eyelashes and dimpled hands, listen to her steady breathing, and marvel at her wonder and curiosity of the world. She is so sweet and trusting, so patient and content.
Jeff is so supporting and loving. He is so far away right now, on his way to the other side of the world; the first time being so far from us. I feel like someone took my legs. I know I can do this without him, but I don't ever ever want to. He is the one that reassures me that everything we are doing is ok, and that Sophie will be ok, and that I am a good mother. I love him more now, and I know he loves me more now. I ask him, 'when did you love me the most?' and he says 'today'. That is how I feel too. I love Jeff, I love Sophie, I love our family.
